by elmolulu
I find myself getting more lost as the days goes by. I’m trapped in my own feelings and emotions.
Perhaps its time to do some serious soul searching. Sometimes I just want to have a normal life like everyone else on this planet, but seems like every time I reached for it, it just drifts further and further. Am I asking and expecting too much? Or I just have plain “bad luck”? Is this the kind of life I want? I am so confused most of the days now, I don’t even know who I am anymore. Tired of empty promises. Everyday I ask myself, “did I make the right decision?” and every time I ended up with no answer.
The best way to do this, is probably taking a step back and look at the whole picture. I believe some alone time with absolute solitude would help me figure out what I’m actually looking for in this life.
by elmolulu
The past few days have been filled with sadness and worries.
I’ve forgotten how good it feels looking at sunrise, weather is nice and very good news from a frd! What more could I ask for?!
Today is a very nice day.
by elmolulu
Progress Status:
- finished lesson 1
- Did G Maj, C Maj, E min, A min and D min chords
- learned how to play a scale
- learned the name of different parts of the guitar
C Major chord was particular hard to play, having to spread my fingers across 3 frets in such position. Also, the fingers must be pressed firmly against the string and not to touch any other strings nearby. Need more practice to play it perfectly.
Finding my wrist is a bit sore cuz I was trying to stretch my fingers apart and as before, finger tips are red and swollen. =) I’d like to see that as a sense of accomplishment from my practicing.
by elmolulu
Wanted to learn for awhile, had a brief lesson from a frd some time ago, but couldn’t continue cuz I had no guitar to practice with.
So finally got my hands on a used beginner’s guitar yesterday. Today will be the first day of my self taught guitar learning. Wish me luck!!
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Just finished practicing for 2 hrs and my finger tips are hurting and swollen!
Progress Status:
- learned how to read tabs
- learned how to strum
- learned E Maj, A Maj, D Maj, and C Maj7 chords
Today’s learning material:
i think i’m going to split those lessons from the first link into two sessions each…until my fingers dont’ hurt at much at least 
by elmolulu
It’s been awhile since I had any kind of self reflection, probably becuz everytime i started looking, I found nothing…
Going back to the age old question – a life without purpose…is what exactly?
Before I thought happiness is the answer, but perhaps I interpreted the word incorrectly. I realized just trying to be happy is not enough, there should be a goal or a dream I have to chase after and what I get in achieving that would be the real meaning of happiness.
However, that’s exactly what I lack. When I try to understand why I’m not really happy or satisfy with my life, I came up with the conclusion: becuz I don’t have a dream. There is not a “thing” out there I want to spend my life seeking. Is it becuz I already have everything that I ever wanted? If so, shouldn’t my life be content instead of feeling empty? Wondering if this is how retired ppl feel about their lives…